What is Culinary Artistry to me?

Completed Beauty 

and the kind of food that is reminiscent 

of going home for dinner.

 There is a noticeable extra special touch 

of detail and refinement.  

Loving attention and creativity has been 

infused into every part of it.

 It's all original and purposefully composed 

to satisfy and go above and beyond 

all of the senses of the one who will consume it . 

 It's not repetitive.

 It most likely can never truly be duplicated.  

Unique and one of a kind!  

Delicious... 

This is what I believe defines 

Culinary Artistry. 

This is just what I do as a Chef.  

This is what I love to do.

This is what I create, the 

kind of food that I always will be creating....  

This is what I want to eat, 

its the 

only kind 

of food I want to eat.

This is how I believe seeds of 

intense food memories are planted. 

I am using what I have learned and 

practiced to share an experience which will remind you to return to my table when you are hungry.

Finding What is in Front of Me-

We start out with this idea that we think we know what we are looking for....

We know what it is supposed to look like and we have a a pretty good idea in our mind that should make finding it easy....

So when it comes time to take hold and start the next big thing we should be able to just do it, right?

What if we all of a sudden can't see the things we thought, that we envisioned so easily would just be there?

What if we arrive at that moment and we can't see what we need at all?

Maybe its time to widen our perspective and be open to the idea that what we really need might not look exactly the way we first thought it would.  It is possible that it may be completely different than anything we could have ever imagined or that we are used to?  Opening up our outlook and pushing completely outside of a narrow focus, this is how we arrive at being open to a change in how we see and do things and ultimatly how we progress.


"We cannot become what we want to be by remaining what we are. "  ~  Max DePree

Somehow here I am going to make my case in point:

I was making crackers today at the Inn.  This is a simple routine task for me nowadays.  I have made them so many times that I don't measure any of the ingredients anymore and I just put them together in the bowl on auto pilot basically.  The funny thing about this production is when it come time to roll the dough out.  I usually make enough cracker dough to fill 3 to 4 sheet pans.  Within this entire production I roll out the dough, add sea salt, roll it again to lock in the sea salt,  cut the cracker pieces, and arrange it on the pans to be baked.  Its such an automatic process for me now except for one thing, every single time, and sometimes between each batch that gets sent to the oven....

When I return to my station to roll out the next batch I cannot find my rolling pin!!

Now I know I just used that darn thing.

At this point I go through the whole timeline of whatever I was just doing because literally 4 minutes ago I was rolling out dough at this exact place.

I didn't send it to the dish washer...
I didn't carry it over to the oven...
I didn't do anything with it I swear..
So where the heck is my rolling pin???
I JUST HAD IT!

ohhhhhhh.....

Its right in front of me...  right where I set it up.... right where I left it... standing UP. (smile)



I expected it... like most rolling pins to be lying down.  I thought I knew what I was looking for, it was supposed to be easy...  Its easy for me to laugh at myself because this happens every single time I make crackers.  I always roll out the dough, cut and set up the first pan and when I return from the oven I have the hardest time finding that rolling pin.  By the way I love that rolling pin that used to have handles.  Its marble and sooooo heavy- its a beautiful tool.  I am glad the handles are gone...

I have learned I can't make crackers that are considered the bomb and a must-have delicious necessity to my customer, if all I ever do is just make crackers.  Thank goodness I am a rule breaking fool as a pastry chef with a chemistry background that allows me to know just how far I can push before regulation and laws of science and nature hold up a stop sign.  My crackers are a product of lots of prototypes.  I'm happy with how they have turned out now... I'm comfortable with the production...

Comfortable....

 So now its time to step away from comfort again- I am facing new challenges in my career now and I am excited but also it means I have to find a whole new way to do things, meet expectations and be successful.  I sent this text recently to a friend:

Dearest... I'm stepping out of my comfort zone again. I don't need anyone's permission but my own and I understand it's not going to be easy, I have been here before.... Goodness it's going to require learning a whole new way of doing things.... But I will never get where I want to be if I stay where I've already been.  No fear!!!  Leaving my comfort zone with good shoes and hope... Another challenging climb... :). Love you my friend!!  Today I am taking a big step in my career, my life, and building courage- I'm ready!

I am certain that this next challenge I am faced with is going to require a much larger focus- the tools or guidance I need may be right in front of me sometimes and hard to see but I need to take time to be more aware.  I need to listen better and be unafraid to ask questions.  I need to remember that I have worked in a multiple variety of practices to get to where I am right now. All those things will be a part of my next success too.  I never want to get too comfortable with what I am doing in my career because that will ultimately be my end.  The only way to offer and share the best of my ability is to constantly be pushing to create something even better than what i just did.  Why not??  I have to see and recognize familiar things but in a whole new way.  

I always say we all have to eat to live, so why not make it something good.

Choose what fuels you wisely.  Please.. make it something good!  Its most likely already right in front of you waiting for your attention.  To pick it up and roll out something amazing!!

Early Morning Riser

Early morning riser how do you get motivated? 

What does the key look like that unlocks your ordinary ability to open your eyes during the stillness of shadowy pre-dawn hours.  What helps you initiate the movement of your bones to an upright stance as you stretch your warm toes onto a greeting with cool floorboards?

 Do you ever reflect on your ritual, habitual, and natural activities before daybreak?  The reflexive actions of outstretched arms, arching your back, lengthening your calves, and ever-reaching for that warm prickling sensation that courses through your rested muscles as they awaken and respond.

Is there a renewed hopefulness that creeps into your imagination and expectations? Do you think about all of the potential that a new day offers in its youth?  When does your first smile appear?  What are you looking forward to?

How wonderfully different is every single morning, your own individual phenomenon of awakening.   Do you start your mornings with a thankful heart?   Today is a brand new day to navigate and exist.  You have no way of knowing for sure if it will be an easy-going day or one full of challenges but that shouldn’t really matter.  Either way you’re getting a fresh plate to fill and create whatever you want.  What will you decide to produce with the ingredients that are assigned to you?  How will you combine these with the ones you already have on-hand.

It is going to take a practiced ability, instinctive knowledge and inventiveness to present your best next step forward today.  How you begin your day will be the catalyst to the chain reaction that carries you through the remainder of your waking hours.  Take the time to make it a good start early riser.  Its going to be another great day.

Go ahead and yawn

Make sure to stretch

Spend an extra minute or two in the shower if you can afford to

Turn on some good music and drink a hot beverage

Eat a delicious breakfast

Get out the door on time

(share some love and hugs with happy kids)

Take the time to watch the sunrise

Wear comfortable shoes

Harvest Time

Hi again!


What does a girl have to say....
When it has been some time now since I have shared my thoughts, my ideas, my confessions as a food lover...
I think that I need to stop making it seem like such an impossible task.  Stop looking at it as a task.  At first  it was only a week from the last time I had made a post- then two- and then before i knew it- almost ten months later I am sitting in front of this screen and finally ready to share...

I'm confident this is a good way for me to jump back in- I have not stopped writing just so you know (smile)  I have just been using more traditional methods of pen and paper up until recently.  Sometimes it just feels good to sense the ink meeting the paper, the sound it makes as it glides across the page and transforms into the story of my heart.

Here is a taste of what I have been creating lately, its just an "amuse" so to speak, a way to get your palate started.  A way to introduce you to what I have been practicing and creating lately in the kitchen.  We will get back to more heartier confessions soon.  This is the first "harvest" I have shared in a while so thank you for being patient with me my friends.  It feels good to share again and make something good!


The Harvest...


In the midst of harvesting... ok stealing all the tootsie rolls from my kids halloween loot bags after they went to sleep on Halloween night I was actually thinking about tomatoes.

 Funny that I would choose this to be my focus while I unwrapped a twisted end to one of the tootsie wrappers and quickly popped the waxy chocolate deliciousness of my youth into my mouth.  Tootsie rolls are one of the last retro candies out there that still seems to make it into kids halloween bags, bank candy bowls and its also tootsie rolls that maintain themselves as the cheapest piece of candy still available at 7-11 and gas stations.  The classic tootsie roll has always been and still is my favorite candy at Halloween.  Forget the crazy flavored, cherry, vanilla and lime- those all taste terrible to me, but not the original.  My kids know how much i love tootsie rolls too.  Riley saved me a whole bag of them from the last birthday party he went to.  I will have to eat them soon since tootsie rolls are really only good when they are fresh and new.  The older they get the harder they are to chew.  I can't stand how Tootsies will stick in your teeth really bad once they get too stale and old too.

But lets get back to the tomatoes...

Especially the cherry or grape variety.  These are about the closest thing I can come up with that is like natures candy to me.  A much healthier choice for sure but that is a reason very far down the list for why I love them.  To me these little gems are like treasures- their annual vine sweetened arrival is a phenomenal event for me now.
(Truthfully, I had  never really liked raw tomatoes of any kind until much later in my life)

My discovery of this ruby red delight in my later years of my lifetime has been a spectacular reawakening of my palate.  I simply love a handful of grape size tomatoes as my treat.  Even finding just one ripe one off the stem is enough in the beginning of the early harvest to exhilarate me and give me a giddy happy smile.

The harvest of tomatoes is complete now.  The colder weather is tip toeing into the scene, exposing early morning frost covered landscapes.  Their is not much in the way of anything being produced anymore, and basically all of the fruit bearing vegetation is turning in for the season. This is not surprising ever, but always bittersweet to me.  Its hard to say goodbye to the vibrancy and beauty of the gardens, the boxes and boxes of farm deliveries with their golden, verdant, and sometimes even fiery treasures.  All the  amazingly delicious treasures that can be eaten straight from their vines or branches.  I find myself savoring these flavors a little more emotionally.  Closing my eyes as I taste the complexities of the final crops of 2011.  Its been a really great year.

NOW

The oven door is left open to spread its remaining traces of warmth into my kitchen as I finish plating dinner.  Their are no fresh tomatoes on my menu tonight.  I am ok with that.  Instead I've already started to reach into my winter storage, the soil laden root crops that I squirreled away these past few months in anticipation of these cooler Autumn evenings.  I don't spend too much time on plate presentation this evening except to make sure the plates are nice and hot to carry my expectations to the dinner fork. 

 Tonight its a table where two of my biggest critics, slash fans await rather impatiently for their meal.  They have already took their turns walking in and out of the kitchen several times, stirring the contents of the saute pan,  and stepping way back by my instruction as a great accumulation of steam releases into the atmosphere during my check of the oven contents.  They have made their guesses, helped make last minute seasoning adjustments and overall kept me company as I prepared this meal.  After I present their plates and go back to the kitchen to pour their apple cider, I instantly smile at the sound of the silverware musically meeting the dishes.  

Returning to the table to join them I get instant feedback.  Riley is fidgeting in his seat as he always does, never sitting still he is up on his knees in his chair and resting on his elbows over top of his place seating.  He is looking into the plate of food as he scoops up his next bite and then he flashes me a sweet sizeable grin... I know he will clean his plate tonight. Yes!  I look over next to me and see Lauren is exploring through the flavors of her dish.  She agrees that I could have been a little more creative with the plating but that the flavors are perfect.  She likes the drop of honey she added to the brussel sprout saute at the last minute for me .  It was a very good call.  She also says I should think about signing up for the Food Network Show chopped in which I reply I could use some more practice.  She reassures me that if I need help with plating ideas that she has always liked to make smiley faces with her food and the judges might like that.  We all laugh and eventually everyone's plate is turned into the dish pit without the need for scraping.

(Dinner tonight:  Brussel Sprout, Mushroom and caramelized onion Saute with Farm raised Smoked Bacon over  Smashed Yukon Gold and Butternut Squash with feta. ~ Could have maybe had a sauce but tonight it tasted great without one too) 

This is it.  Production yields smiles and a memorable experience.  

Tootsie rolls are instant and everywhere, all the time.  They are taken for granted so that in order to enjoy them I have decided for myself that I have to be willing to not think too deeply about what they are made up of.  They are ok once a year I guess.

Tomatoes are special and their flavor profile changes with the intrinsic fusion of the season they belong to.  While they can also be taken for granted when their harvest is good and plentiful, their capacity to make a meal completely special and memorable is powerful.  They are one of my favorite tastes of sunshine.

TOMATO

the first vine-ripened gem sliced in half

delicate splash of seasoning
now close your eyes

go on a taste journey

simple complexity

of sunshine

and rain

the language of pure flavor

It demands your attention

scarlet beauty

communicating clearly

pleasure filled moment

Luscious memory.

Present-Tense Thinking.

The sunrise through a busy morning intersection.  

Put your right hand directly over your heart.  With focused intention feel the sensations of your one and only heart's automatic and rythymic pulse as it gently imposes its force through layers of internal and external protections.   


Take a deep breathe in.  Now with a measure of control release the consumption of your lungs.  As you do this be totally aware of every part of you that has to perform in perfect unison to activate this normally involuntary reflex.


 This is the natural synchronicity that is meant to support your days and years of accumulated life.  Generally these utility systems of energy exchange within us, continuing in their functions with little or any purposeful prompting by any of our own original thought.  Circulatory beauty, our body is designed to take care of itself.  Our bodies also have abilities to give us subtle, and even acute messages in times of certain needs.  Be it hunger, thirst, a particular nutrient, or sleep, if we are healthy and in tune to these messages we can meet our own needs and progress.  Once we have met these basic needs we have the freedom to devote more energy to the moments of passionate experience that we crave.


I believe it is important to slow down and connect with the heartbeat and breathe often.  Its the most immediate and easiest way to be present.  Being present is important to be able to understand the truth of what is going on around you.  To become a better listener and create a stronger awareness of the atmosphere you are being surrounded with.  Breathe in...

Is this where you want to be right now?  Its up to you to tell your feet where to travel.


Is this what you wanted to do?  It takes honest decision-making to match up your current attendance to where you truly hoped to be today.          


Are you happy today?  That is a choice.


Are you thankful for anything?  Gratitude, appreciation, comprehension of what is good about your life and taking nothing for granted is essential to recognizing your happiness potential. 

 Breathe out...


Practice being present for your life.


Today is always an opportunity.  Today I spent most of my time at school...


For me I wanted to be enrolled in and graduate from culinary school.  I made a choice to be here.  I want to make the most of this educational journey.  I am happy to be apart of a team with established goals.  I am thankful for the ability to practice and hone my culinary and professional skills, and also for the guidance of my instructors.  I will be successful here because I am intentional about achieving my purpose.  I want to share my passion and excitement for food to help people feel healthy and happy and thankful.


I can apply this kind of presence to every part of my life...

³pres·ent

 adj \ˈpre-z^ənt\

Definition of PRESENT

1

: now existing or in progress

2

a : being in view or at handb : existing in something mentioned or under consideration

3: constituting the one actually involved, at hand, or being considered 

The Importance of Precision

¹pre·ci·sion

 noun \pri-ˈsi-zhən\

Definition of PRECISION

1

: the quality or state of being precise : Exactness

2

a : the degree of refinement with which an operation is performed or a measurement stated — 

I have learned practice is the only thing that will yield precision. 

Every single teacher I have had has made the point that a very telling characteristic of a chef's abilities starts with his/her knife skills.  It shows attention to detail and experience or practice with the craft.  As the knife becomes an extension of our hands it is important to know how to use it 

safely and with accuracy. Once this is mastered, the kitchen cutting board becomes a stage for the ingredients of every type of cuisine to be manipulated, modified and transformed into something special.  

You have to know how to take care of your knife too.  This applies to keeping the blade SHARP.  A dull knife is even more dangerous than the blade that can shave hairs from your wrist.  A dull knife will require you to use a much more force to push a blade through the items you are slicing and dicing.  If your knife is sharp, then the knife does almost all the work, allowing you to be its guide.

Precision.

Its what allows us to be at the cutting edge of whatever we are doing.

Exactness.

Proves an attention to detail and that it mattered.

Refinement.

Smoothing out the rookie approach to your tasks by applying practice.

Methods of Measure

¹mea·sure

 noun \ˈme-zhər, ˈmā-\

Definition of MEASURE

 : the dimensions, capacity, or amount of something ascertained by measuring : an estimate of what is to be expected (as of a person or situation) : a measured quantity 

  : the act or process of measuring

       : a basis or standard of comparison measure of happiness>

       : a step planned or taken as a means to an end

In whatever you pursue...  constant and careful measurement can become an extremely important component to understanding and recognizing your success.   Today we decided on our mission statement as a class:  

"As passionate students, we are proud to put forth our best efforts while striving for 

simple perfection."

~Spring 2011 Restaurant Class

Everyone seemed to be pretty happy with what we came up with together.  This will be one of our measuring standards to abide by for the entire time we are apart of this learning experience.  A standard that we should carry with us beyond graduation I am sure.  If we are successful in running this teaching restaurant, which I have confident we will be, then we will have met the expectations we estimated with high hopes and strived for.  There is so much more I can say about this.  Measure is a lot bigger word than I realized but for now I am going to conclude with this quote by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe:

“To measure up to all that is demanded of him, a man must overestimate his capacities”